Thursday 11 July 2013

Random Ramblings...

Okies... so... the other day I was rabbling to Michelle, as I do, about how I'm feeling 'blah' creatively and she suggested I sketch something.  Yeah, well that didn't go so well.  I had to copy a picture I found because I just couldn't even remember how to start {my Yr12 Art Teacher would be rolling her eyes at me now}. And while I finished a gorgeous daisy I was exhausted once done {seriously, who thought holding a pencil was such hard work}... but I was happy, so maybe it did do me well... at least it got me thinking!

And then another day I was talking to Natasha, about that I was blog surfing for inspiration, even hitting Pinterest and nothing... nada... not a thing jumped out at me {ok well there were some gorgeous shabby floral arrangements that I had to pin, but nothing 'creative'}. 

<<< It's pretty hey!!

I'm not saying that there's nothing beautiful to look at, there's masses of stunning layouts and cards and projects...  the talent out there is incredible!  But I found nothing that called to me, and I hate that 'blah' feeling, it's so crippling.  What did stand out was that all I noticed was advertising, advertising product, advertising their creative self... and I realised I do the exact same thing, each and every post... I 'get' that we on DT's need to do that, it's part of our 'job', and I LOVE to share about products I adore, but we don't have to all the time do we?  Our 'job' shouldn't overtake our love of the hobby, art, creativity or ourselves!  Once upon a time I used to blog about all the little things as well... I miss that, so that little conversation with Tash got me thinking perhaps it's not the creativity that's blah... it's the lack of all those extra little things!

And so... back on track {I easily wander off onto other tangents} I think it's time to share more of me than just what I'm creating, because there's more to me than just what I can do with paper, ink and glue.  Michelle is doing a 30 Day blog Challenge, she's onto day 4, she's doing so well... I'm so proud of this girl, so pleased to be her friend!  Check out her blog HERE, I guarantee you'll be inspired!  I call myself an 'artist wannabe', Michelle is an artist {even if she still isn't ready to admit it LOL}... and I'm only an 'artist wannabe' because I'm to lazy to throw myself into it all LOL!

So anyways... I know I am not disciplined enough to actually blog everyday like Michelle is, most days I can't even bear to turn the computer on after a day of work... let alone have anything to talk about each day after work LOL!  But I am going to share more of ME with you here and there.  My thoughts, my happenings, funny things, sad things, weird things... just things, scattered in amongst my projects.  And in doing so, I hope that if you're blog surfing and feeling the same as I did, you come across a post that connects to you and talks to you... about real stuff, not just our creative escapism!

I'll start from the now... because the last 6 months have actually been among the worse I've ever had and there's a way to go yet, and I know that there are far far worse things that could happen, but I'll be fine, what's happened affects me but isn't about me {yeah sorry to be cryptic, I hate it when people do that and here I am doing it, but it's not my story to share}... life goes on and I plan to enjoy all the good things that will happen inbetween the crappy bits!  Everything happens for a reason, you just gotta work out what that reason is!

So... {LOL I've just realised I start lotsa paragraphs that way}... so, the good thing that has happened for me lately that I want to share is work related, as in the day job... the thing that keeps a roof over our head and food in our bellies!  It's busy, very busy... I've been very stressed, doing too much work with not enough support... and none of that has changed.  But my attitude has and that's made all the difference!  I've stopped worrying about what other people aren't doing {well trying anyways LOL, it's getting easier with practice} and am just doing the best I can do without running myself to the ground.  I may not get to leave on time every day, but they're pretty give and take there with me, if I need to leave early some day I'm covered.  We've got some renovations happening where I worked downstairs in production... so they moved me upstairs 'temporarily'.  I now have all my own stuff, a new lamp and a door moved... and my own office... there's no room to fit me downstairs now, and surprisingly I'm really happy being back upstairs with the sales team.  I've figured I'm there for good now, since my desk downstairs has gone into storage and I've been given everything I need to make me comfortable upstairs .  Guess I should have been back there years ago, but I went downstairs to help out once and never went back up!  I am really liking it... a change is as good as a holiday I guess {ok, I really love my holidays so maybe it's 'almost' as good} but this last week I've been more than happy to get up and go to work each day!

Well it's past my bedtime now... time to take myself off to bed, with the dog {because she follows me everywhere}, and the cat will follow as soon as the heater out here is off.  Then eventually the hubby will stagger in when he realises it's freezing cold and the house is quiet and find a spot in bed somehow, LOL we need a bigger bed!

Until next time...
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12 comments:

  1. Hi Mistra, I really enjoyed reading your post and I totally agree with you about loosing focus on why we blog (I'm new to it going on 2yrs) but I see what you're talking about. I get tons of inspirations from you talented ladies, so I can't complain yet about the "blah" feelings LOL.. Your ending was hilarious about how you all find your way to the bed LOL... Thanks for sharing :-)
    ~Steff~

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    1. Thanks Steff!

      I used to look back on my blog years ago as a diary of sorts, and now it's just a scrap album... it felt so good to bring a little of myself back into it.

      Thanks for taking the time to leave a comment, I really appreciate it!

      Mis xo

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  2. Mistra I love your post today. So glad that you are choosing to include some personal things again. I have long been reading your posts and enjoy your creative style very much. I don't blog myself because I am afraid that I wouldn't get anything else done. So many people seem to be experiencing tough times, myself included. And I believe we need each other to recharge ourselves. When we stop sharing, we stop charging. And I am not talking just about the creative side of our selves. I live and work at a much slower pace because of dealing with cancer and its aftermath. And I will have to do this the rest of my life. I always find inspiration in someone else's story; someone else's creative vision. I love when the two are married. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. It's something we all have in common. Hugs to you. Theresa

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    1. Thanks Theresa!

      It does seem to be a hard year for so so many people, but I get you about sharing to recharge, you're so right - thanks for putting it in such simple terms!

      I woke up feeling so much better this morning, a little more 'myself' which was so freeing!

      Mis xo

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  3. This post really hit home with me at the moment- I am missing the days of just creating what I want, when I want to without having to follow a colour scheme or a sketch and those deadlines that come around way too quickly. I am sure my creative funk is temporary though- I probably need a little bit of an attitude adjustment to get me back on track :-)

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    1. I don't mind deadlines... I truly think without them the TV and I would become the best of friends and nothing would ever be created LOL! I always try to create for me, even with my DT work... I guess that's why I've tended to steer clear of sketch and colour sites? But still I seemed to lose a bit of 'me' on the 'public' side!

      I love your work, it always looks so effortless and free... but I get ya! Maybe I need to mix it up a bit and try some 'clean' style scrapping - gulp!

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  4. Way to go Hun, definitely is freeing hey, scary but freeing!
    You are an awesome writer, I always enjoy the humour you can bring into your stories!!
    Proud of ya! xxxx

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    1. Thanks Mich... as always you inspire and help keep me motivated!! xoxo

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  5. Hi.. Thanks for sharing.. I feel like I am pretty newish to blogging so am still learning stuff.. I love hopping around and seeing what everyone is up to and do enjoy it when they share a bit about their lives too.. I love what you create and I do know what it is like to sit at my scrap desk with an empty head and not know where to start or what to do.. Life throws stuff at us all the time, at the moment my hubby is unemployed as he quit the job he had for 20 years.. too much to explain why... so life is a bit more stressful then normal for me at the moment... I hope your job continues to be good and the other stuff sorts itself out too.. I hope your weekend is a peaceful one for you!! take care..lizzy

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    1. Thanks Lizzy!

      My hubby isn't working either... makes things a bit harder when you've budgeted your life on 2 wages. But we'll get there, hope you guys get some stress free time again soon!

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  6. Hey Mistra, glad to hear you are back blogging. I miss reading your posts about what you have been up to in your world. Blogging can be time consuming - hence I don't have one, and I'm sure most people would agree, people should only blog when they feel like not under the expectations of everyone.
    Michelle

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    1. Thanks Michelle... I really missed it, just didn't realise how much! I like to share, and not just my creations, so it's been good for my soul to get back into this!

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