Random Ramblings...

Okies... so... the other day I was rabbling to Michelle, as I do, about how I'm feeling 'blah' creatively and she suggested I sketch something.  Yeah, well that didn't go so well.  I had to copy a picture I found because I just couldn't even remember how to start {my Yr12 Art Teacher would be rolling her eyes at me now}. And while I finished a gorgeous daisy I was exhausted once done {seriously, who thought holding a pencil was such hard work}... but I was happy, so maybe it did do me well... at least it got me thinking!

And then another day I was talking to Natasha, about that I was blog surfing for inspiration, even hitting Pinterest and nothing... nada... not a thing jumped out at me {ok well there were some gorgeous shabby floral arrangements that I had to pin, but nothing 'creative'}. 

<<< It's pretty hey!!

I'm not saying that there's nothing beautiful to look at, there's masses of stunning layouts and cards and projects...  the talent out there is incredible!  But I found nothing that called to me, and I hate that 'blah' feeling, it's so crippling.  What did stand out was that all I noticed was advertising, advertising product, advertising their creative self... and I realised I do the exact same thing, each and every post... I 'get' that we on DT's need to do that, it's part of our 'job', and I LOVE to share about products I adore, but we don't have to all the time do we?  Our 'job' shouldn't overtake our love of the hobby, art, creativity or ourselves!  Once upon a time I used to blog about all the little things as well... I miss that, so that little conversation with Tash got me thinking perhaps it's not the creativity that's blah... it's the lack of all those extra little things!

And so... back on track {I easily wander off onto other tangents} I think it's time to share more of me than just what I'm creating, because there's more to me than just what I can do with paper, ink and glue.  Michelle is doing a 30 Day blog Challenge, she's onto day 4, she's doing so well... I'm so proud of this girl, so pleased to be her friend!  Check out her blog HERE, I guarantee you'll be inspired!  I call myself an 'artist wannabe', Michelle is an artist {even if she still isn't ready to admit it LOL}... and I'm only an 'artist wannabe' because I'm to lazy to throw myself into it all LOL!

So anyways... I know I am not disciplined enough to actually blog everyday like Michelle is, most days I can't even bear to turn the computer on after a day of work... let alone have anything to talk about each day after work LOL!  But I am going to share more of ME with you here and there.  My thoughts, my happenings, funny things, sad things, weird things... just things, scattered in amongst my projects.  And in doing so, I hope that if you're blog surfing and feeling the same as I did, you come across a post that connects to you and talks to you... about real stuff, not just our creative escapism!

I'll start from the now... because the last 6 months have actually been among the worse I've ever had and there's a way to go yet, and I know that there are far far worse things that could happen, but I'll be fine, what's happened affects me but isn't about me {yeah sorry to be cryptic, I hate it when people do that and here I am doing it, but it's not my story to share}... life goes on and I plan to enjoy all the good things that will happen inbetween the crappy bits!  Everything happens for a reason, you just gotta work out what that reason is!

So... {LOL I've just realised I start lotsa paragraphs that way}... so, the good thing that has happened for me lately that I want to share is work related, as in the day job... the thing that keeps a roof over our head and food in our bellies!  It's busy, very busy... I've been very stressed, doing too much work with not enough support... and none of that has changed.  But my attitude has and that's made all the difference!  I've stopped worrying about what other people aren't doing {well trying anyways LOL, it's getting easier with practice} and am just doing the best I can do without running myself to the ground.  I may not get to leave on time every day, but they're pretty give and take there with me, if I need to leave early some day I'm covered.  We've got some renovations happening where I worked downstairs in production... so they moved me upstairs 'temporarily'.  I now have all my own stuff, a new lamp and a door moved... and my own office... there's no room to fit me downstairs now, and surprisingly I'm really happy being back upstairs with the sales team.  I've figured I'm there for good now, since my desk downstairs has gone into storage and I've been given everything I need to make me comfortable upstairs .  Guess I should have been back there years ago, but I went downstairs to help out once and never went back up!  I am really liking it... a change is as good as a holiday I guess {ok, I really love my holidays so maybe it's 'almost' as good} but this last week I've been more than happy to get up and go to work each day!

Well it's past my bedtime now... time to take myself off to bed, with the dog {because she follows me everywhere}, and the cat will follow as soon as the heater out here is off.  Then eventually the hubby will stagger in when he realises it's freezing cold and the house is quiet and find a spot in bed somehow, LOL we need a bigger bed!

Until next time...

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