Sigh... does it ever get easier?

This year Kel started High School... new change, new opportunities, fresh start. Academically he's all over the place but has made VAST improvements. We've gone from 2/10 in a Yr 8 spelling test to 10/10 doing Yr 9 work in a matter of weeks. One of this weeks words was onomatopoeia {I had to google that one to learn both what it meant and how to say it}... personally, I think he's doing so well.

Today I had a meeting with the school nurse, chaplain, year co-ordinator and psych... oh yes, that felt uncomfortable being under that microscope! I have learned that while I have a child who is doing much better with his school work in some subjects, in others the teachers can't control him and he often refuses to do the work and walks out of class. How does a child have such a vast change between classes! At home I have a vibrant happy child who makes me laugh everyday, who gives me hugs and says I love you, at school he has no friends and isn't trying... he isolates himself but is so very lonely but doesn't 'get' how to make friends with the kids that are trying hard to make him feel not so alone... it's like he's happy to stay the 'victim' because that's his comfort spot, he knows the boundaries there. It breaks my heart...

So we have agreed we have some problems to deal with, the first being trying to get him to participate with activities involving others... we discovered he's only happy in the classes where he has little team work {again isolating himself}. Then we need to find a way to help him learn to be not so socially awkward, and that's going to be the hard part because he's always been that way, it's a part of who/how he is... he's going to need some professional help again, because he needs to help himself break free of the world he's put himself into before we can all help him build on it, and I don't have the skills to get him there alone. I hope once we can do that and build his confidence again that he can be happy and enjoy school, it's such a precious time in our life.

In the meantime... here we go again, ready for another roller-coaster ride!

Take care of you.

Time for change...

... just a wee one to start with.

You may have noticed I've been playing! I'm changing the look of my blog, playing around, learning how to change backgrounds and hopefully make my own. I've made a new header, changed the name... maybe 'scrappy' was too close to 'crappy' in the scheme of the universe, so I'm going for scrap'ilicious and scrap'tastic' now... fun and positive words have to help somewhere! Hope you like the Pink... and the yummy rose, that I must credit where-ever it was I found it, one of the printable download places somewhere on here, another thing on my to do list!

I've got page tabs up the top there now {oooh la la}, only took a day to work out how to use them, doh! But that's where most of the links that were filling up my side bar have gone now, in their own homes!

Take care of you.



Edited to add: I did it, I created my very first background. OK, so it might be a little full on, but for now I'm LOVING it!

A BIG sigh of relief...

OK... let me tell you a story that had our emotions all over the place over the last few days, it has a happy ending though!

Darren lost his job because of a gross misunderstanding on Thursday, which being in such a financial mess atm after the last few years of let downs was quite a shock. But he had a meeting with his boss on Saturday to try and sort it out, but no answer as to whether they would reinstate the contract. Anyways, on Friday he applied for a job in the same field {as you do when you suddenly have no paycheck coming next week} and he had an interview that same day, fluke that the 1st job we see was in the industry he's in and a by far easier role than what he was doing. Both we were waiting until 'early in the week' for an answer to see where our future was going.

Well today he got a call about the interview he had on Friday with the other company, and was offered the job!! We are so excited as this one really sounds just right. It's less pay, but also a heap less stress, it's a family run business and finally out of the world of corporate bullshit and shareholder kowtowing... it will suit Darren down to the ground. He starts on Wednesday, luckily I get paid Friday so we're ok. This job is also permanent so we can look at either selling and buying elsewhere, or remortgaging the home we have, to get us out of our mess. We see a nice big light at the end of that tunnel now... life is good! I hope it all works out for him, I just want him to be happy at his work... most of us have to work at something somewhere these days and we all deserve to be happy doing it!

In the meantime though I've come to realise that job or no job... own house or renting... as long as we have each other, have our family unit, have our health... we should be eternally grateful, the rest shouldn't be stressed over, the rest is the little stuff by comparison... isn't it?

Take care of you.

My baby girl...

My baby girl... ok well Kel's baby girl, but she's mine too! Isn't she gorgeous!?! She's just over 4 months old now, barks at all the right sounds {and sometimes the wrongs ones}, loves her toys, us, chew sticks and her dinner and brings me joy each and every day!

I'm not seeing a whole lot of Labrador in her anymore, her shape is more Collie now, being finer... but her coat is shiny and lovely, and changing colour here and there, the blonde is seeping through LOL!

Don't ya just love Dreadlock Ted, somehow this chew toy manages to hold it together, aside from the bad hair days it's having!

Take care of you.

Realisation...

Yeah... I'm blogging... for today, at this moment. Been a while... again. Sounds like a broken record that part, but soon to be over! Today, in a 'clear' moment... I've discovered what it was I've been searching for over the last year. And it wasn't more... it was less, and now I know that... I can see that I will again be truly happy.

What you want is not always {well rarely is} what you need. Pity it's cost me a lot to learn that! But I am blessed that it didn't cost me my family and close friends... yeah, my health suffered... but that's fixable.

Some reading this may not have any idea what on earth I am on about... but I know, my friends know, my family know, you don't want to know - honest, trust me there! I'm not going to go over it here. This is my place of peace... I'm moving on and what is past is past, I now look towards the present and future and it will be good.

But next time I do something as mental as put a friggin' permanent pink stripe through my hair... can ya book me into the pshyc ward because if that wasn't a cry for help I have no idea what is! LOL!!